Do Not Worry

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Matthew 6:25-26

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 

Easy right? Not so much. I suspect if it were easy, it wouldn’t have been included in the Sermon on the Mount.

Can I learn to live the moment in front of me and not think about the next …

hour
day
week
month
year

I can’t even let the next moment happen without

planning
and planning again
worrying
and worrying more
thinking
and rethinking

But as I examine the photo above, the birds are not looking around worried about danger, they’re not fighting to forage for food. It doesn’t appear as though they are feeding and also poised for flight eager for the next moment.

I know if I were to move toward them to get a closer look, they would quickly fly away. But not until that moment.

They are living in the now. With freedom. Freedom that God wants me to experience.

Enjoy the moment. It slips by.   Just   Like   That.

On the Journey, Jackie

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Rest

We have a new sunroom addition with the perfect place for me to sit and find rest. (Just for the record, it needs snow this time of the year).

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Just as last’s week post wasn’t your typical Christmas post, “Rest” is not the typical New Year’s post. But it is my word for the year. Last year it was “hope” and I posted about it on my quilting/sewing website.

During my fall sabbitical “quit striving” became my focus. I’ve had a few months to ponder that thought and consider what it should look like.

Did you know “rest” is a noun and not a verb?

Several definitions include:

A freedom from activity or labor
A state of motionless or inactivity
Peace of mind or spirit

That’s a lot of doing in my mind for a noun meant cease activity. I don’t rest well. I don’t do nothing well. If my body is not moving my mind is in overdrive.

So for me, rest means…

Rest from all my striving (how to manage my goals)
Rest from all the “to do’s” (of my own making)
Rest from myself (I’m my own worst enemy)

Matthew 11:28

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

Now I have a place to find rest.

I just need to give myself permission to do so.

Do you have a word for the year? How do you find rest?

Hoping to discover what rest means and practice it in my life this year. On the Journey. Jackie

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But Mary Pondered…

A few years ago my daughter asked me what my favorite Christmas verse was. I hesitated in answering. Not because I didn’t know. But because it is not the typical Christmas verse.

Luke 2:19

But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.

I am a slow processor and I let ideas and thoughts simmer in my head before I come to conclusions.

What strikes me about this verse is that the shepherds have come with exciting news to share about her newborn child and her reaction… she ponders.

Kristen made this for me, most likely with the intent that I would display it at Christmas time. Instead it hangs over my nightstand so I can read it each night before going to bed.  It reminds me to take the thoughts I’ve had throughout the day and ponder them. Run them by God and let Him speak to me.

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What do you do with the deep thoughts God gives you?

Tell everyone you know
Dismiss them
Question them

Or are you like Mary and ponder and

Consider their impact
Wonder what the next step is
Treasure what God is doing

So as we celebrate Christmas today, have you pondered the impact of the Christ child on  your life?

Christmas Blessings. Jackie

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Passionate Grace

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Happy Birthday Grace, though I know it’s a few days early.

Amazing, intense, full of life, determined, energetic and passionate Grace.

The force in which you fought for life in your early days in the NICU is now a force for us to be reckon with. 🙂

You put every ounce of your being into living. There is no in-between. A perfect example is how you love your brother. You can be screaming at the top of your lungs one minute clawing at him in anger or the next minute we will find you jumping up and down cheering him on. Fully, passionately, purposefully. No reservations. All in. We never wonder how you feel about something. It’s written on your face and in your body language. And then we hear you. 🙂

My prayer for you this year is to take that passion even at the young age of almost 7 and allow God to wrap His arms around you and mold that passion and love of life.

Colossians 3:23New International Version (NIV)

23 Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters,

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Giving Thanks

thankgiving-fall-photoFall is my favorite time of year and Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday.

For several reasons:

Cool, crisp days
Changing colors on the trees
Celebrating family
Calm before the busyness of Christmas
Chance to reflect on the goodness in my life and the blessings of God

Sometimes however, life throws curves that make giving thanks more challenging. Or impossible. So what happens when the goodness and blessings are hard to see? When life is challenging?

That is when I:

Choose to give thanks
Or try to
Look outside the circumstances
Or beyond my comfort level
Because God deserves my praise

1 Thessalonians 5:18

… give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

This year while it had it challenges, was also filled with blessing and was a much better year than last. So it was easier to give thanks. I can’t help but wonder if the years that hold difficulties and giving thanks is more difficult also bring me closer to God.

Something to think about in this season of thanksgiving.

With much thanksgiving, on the Journey, Jackie

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Living in Fear

sunriseI’ve spent most of my life living in fear. Real, imagined and borrowed.

The real:

Crouching under the bed, scrunched in the corner as far away from the drunken belt as I can be.
Fear of drowning when thrown into water over your head when you don’t know how to swim
Screaming to get off a roller coaster ride, remembering a roll-over accident.
Losing everything and having to start over, again.

The imagined:

Making an escape route in case someone were to break in and try to take my children.
Taking a mistake and making it and the consequences bigger than they are.
All the “what if’s” my brain can come up with that are highly unlikely – trust me I have a lot going on in that arena.

The borrowed:

Losing my spouse.
Growing old and not having my mind or body function as it does now.
Losing a child.
Losing everything, again.

While there is “healthy” fear (that is where I put my fear of heights :)) such as being cautious out at night by myself. The other fears, real, imagined or borrowed, can prevent us from living in and enjoying the present.

Reality check on my fears:

The real: I lived through them. Not fun. But I did survive them. And stronger for it.
The imagined: Why do I even go there?
The borrowed: Yes, they are real possibilities.

Why am I letting them steal today’s joy?

2 Timothy 1:7
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.

What fears are keeping you from living in the present?

Trying to live free from fear. On the Journey. Jackie

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The Little Boy Next Door

lonberger-boysCamden, Colson, Caiden and Christian, this post is for you.

Remember the little boy behind your house that you would play with. Your mommy shared with me that she was sad when he moved away.

She didn’t always feel that way. He had bad language, bad manners and would break your things. She was protecting you. Then she realized that she needed to love him. And that meant embracing him into your house. Teaching him, loving him but it also meant sending him home when he didn’t respect the house rules. And watching him with a sad face walk slowly home. It also meant asking him if he had eaten breakfast long after she had cleaned up the breakfast dishes.

Now she is wondering…

…did I love him enough
…care enough
…was Jesus enough
…say enough
…do enough

I want to tell her and you that you all did plenty.

Someday, God will whisper his name, just as He will you. And that little boy next door will remember.

He will remember…

…playing with you
…getting fed when he was hungry
…the rules, that while he didn’t like, told him was loved
…the kind words that were spoken
…acceptance

He may not remember her name, or yours, but he will remember the love that was Christ through you

How do I know this? Because I was like that little boy. Someone came into my life for a very brief time when I was young. She would come and take me to church. I don’t remember what I learned there. I don’t remember her name. What I do remember is how safe and loved I felt when I was with her. God used that to call my name.

So I want you and your mommy to remember…

Matthew 25:40
The King will reply, Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.

Remembering. On the Journey. Jackie

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Striving

“Quit striving” was the admonishment I received from the Lord during my sabbitical. And I’ve been pondering it since. And you might be asking why I’m pondering vs. putting into practice. It’s because I am a slow processor. And I don’t take God’s words to me lightly.

duck-on-water

Interestingly enough, as I was getting ready to write this, I came across a post on striving I had started 4 years ago, before I made this blog public. A reoccurring theme in my life I guess. It shouldn’t come as a surprise…

I’m a….

task-focused
intense
goal-orientated
perfectionistic
driven
all or nothing

….person.

“Quit striving”

How is someone like me going to stop striving?
And what does it look like?
How do I bring what is so much a part of me into the workings and presence of God?

My intense driven personality lends itself to work just as hard at not striving.
But isn’t that defeating the purpose?

Which is why I need to ponder this.
Deeply.

Zechariah 4:6 
Not by might, nor by power but by my spirit says the Lord.

Trying to quit striving in God’s spirit. On the Journey. Jackie

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Unprayed Prayers

Do you have prayers that are never prayed. Fleeting thoughts that you never formulate? Those things that you think about and toss aside? I had one of those unprayed for prayers.

I like using my own photos for this blog. But I am not a photographer. I have a simple point and shoot that most of the time I forget to use. I did wish though, that I had my own picture of an eagle for this post. An unspoken unprayed for prayer. Just a wish/thought.

An unplanned change plan in my evening (as told here) resulted in the pictures below.

When “my” spot was taken I walked to the other side of the lake. Only to meet up with a couple fishing off the dock. Sigh. I wanted peace and solitude. They wanted to talk. The man noticed I had a camera and asked if it could take pictures on the opposite shore (I didn’t think so). He continued to talk and pointed to a bald eagle sitting in the trees. He said I should try to take a picture of it and I could hardly spot it! The desire to get my own photo of an eagle was greater than my resistance to having my plans thwarted and negative thoughts that my camera would never pick up the eagle.

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I was thrilled.

I was even more thrilled when it took off in flight and I was able to capture it.

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A small God moment.
And I almost missed it.
Because I didn’t get what I wanted.
A disappointment brought about a blessing.

Psalm 107:1
Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good, his love endures forever.

Happy that God interrupted my plans for His. On the Journey, Jackie

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When God Answers a Mother’s Prayer

I talked about Christian over here when God called his name.

I know however that it is one thing to pray for your child and have then admit their sin. It’s another when you see a change in heart. That is the hard part for all of us.

Our head may say…

  • Forgive
  • Love
  • Surrender
  • Act

In our heart however we may…

  • Bear bitterness
  • Hate
  • Hold on
  • Stand still

Not long after his mother’s prayer, Christian was found writing and cutting out words.

christian-with-his-words

His conversation with his dad when asked what he was doing…

He said, “I’m gonna tape these papers to doors to remind people of something.”
Me, “oh, yeah? Remind them of what?”
Him, “Remind them of God, Jesus, the world, and the Holy Spirit”
Me, “Ok then.”

Deuteronomy 6:9
Write them on the doorframes of your houses and on your gates.

christian-with-sign

What words do you have written on your heart?

Learning from a child, on the Journey, Jackie

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