Do I Really Want What I Think I Want?

Opposite ShoreI’ve had many dreams and desires over the  years. Many did not come to pass as I wanted. Some I am sad about, others I’m glad I didn’t get what I wanted, as I’ve come to realize it wasn’t really what I wanted. Those that I am sad about, I know deep down it was good I didn’t get what I wanted. I wouldn’t be where I am now and I like where I am. But still… there is the longing for the lost dreams.

Why is that? Is it our nature to want what we can’t have, or isn’t good for us, or the best for us? Or is it more of the maturing process?

I’m at a place where I’m again wondering. Do I really want what I think I want? There are still some dreams from long ago that I miss not having. And the longings are still there. But today I’m struggling with the dreams of today and their possibilities.

Psalm 37:4

Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.

In the past I’ve had to pray, “God bring into alignment your will for me and make them the desires of my heart. Help me focus on you and you alone.”

I don’t think God just gives us everything we think we want.

  • Because He knows
  • What’s best for us
  • And we don’t really know what we are asking for
  • Or what we really want
  • And our focus is not where it should be

It’s easy to overlook the first part of the verse, “take delight in the Lord” If my focus is on Him, then can my desires be contradictory to His? If I turn my eyes to Him my desires take a back seat. Or are changed.

So here I am again. Praying.

“God I know what I think I want. But what is it that you want for me? Bring my desires in line with yours. Open doors, even if they are unexpected.

Give me the courage.

  • To wait
  • To hear “no”
  • To walk in places I didn’t expect to walk
  • To be open to what you have for me
  • To be still

Amen.”

What about you? Do you find your desires in line with God’s? Are you in a place of waiting?

Trying not to run ahead of God. On the Journey. Jackie

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